Interlude
I had the most amazing dream the other night and I still remember the details now, which is extremely weird for me. Well, I’m going to share it with you. It’s a dream revolving around Gerard. I rate it R for sexuality, rape, violence, thematic elements surround vampires, and a brief mention of incest.
Me and four friends go to an MCR concert. Gerard makes eye contact with me and I’m doing the whole girl thing. We leave the concert and go to a restaurant and then we’re driving home. I’m sitting in the backseat with two of my girlfriends and I’m on the right side of the car, next to the door.
For some unknown reason I suddenly have this emotional epiphany that my life is too predictable. I open the car door and fling myself out of it. The two friends in the back seat follow me.
They chase me until we’re all on the subway. They try and drag me out, but I refuse to move and the train starts moving. The car is completely empty. They’re bitching at me, saying that some guy’s going to come onto the train and rape us.
The lights flicker and then go out as the train stops. The doors open and we see the sillouette of a man stepping onto the train: long hair, long jacket, and an apple.
The doors close and the train moves, and then the lights come on. Me and my friends see that it’s Gerard. They’re both sitting on one of the benches and I’m sitting on the floor, leaning back on my arms, my legs bent up at the knee.
He smiles at us and takes a bite out of the apple. We’re all quite at ease with the situation and then I notice something, but my friends don’t. As Gerard is taking bites out of his apple, I notice his teeth morphing from molars to fangs and back again. He realizes I notice and smiles, dropping the apple.
I scramble onto the bench next to my friends and he crosses the car until he’s directly in front of us. Quickly, he sucks the blood of both my friends; killing one and turning the other.
When he turns to me I try and run from the seat, but he knocks me onto the ground, hovering over me. He’s trying to bite my neck and I struggle as my friends did not.
The scene changes to some time later, but I understand the backstory.
I live in a house filled with other vampires. Gerard refuses to turn me until I agree to it, much to the displeasure of everyone else living in the house, but they won’t lay a hand on me. Everyday I try and run away, to the subway, but Gerard’s spies always catch me before I make it. Then, he rapes me. The next day the cycle repeats.
Returning to present time, there is a banquet going on in the house. I try to run again, but trip before I’ve even made it out of the yard. For reasons completely unknown and unrelated, my mother chases me out of the house in tears and asks if I’m trying to get her attention by doing this.
I’m trying to explain, but the next thing I know I’m in Gerard’s chambers yet again. He teases me about only making it ten yards out of the house. Then, he rapes me again.
We have a discussion and an agreement (more his agreeing and my submitting). He promises not to send spies after me the next day, but if I do not agree to be turned by midnight and marry him, I will die.
I run and I make it, but he finds me sitting on a bench as if I were simply waiting. And I was. We go to a hotel and he doesn’t rape me, although we have a discussion.
I agree to marry him on a few conditions. The first is that he may no longer have mistresses. The second is that he will treat me as a wife, not as a toy or sex slave.
He agrees and then I ask him some questions about turning. One of them is if female vampires continue to have periods and he tells me know. In a sad voice I murmur that I will never be able to have a child. He corrects me and tells me that it is possible for vampires to have children. I tell him I want a child and he agrees that we can have one in 100 years.
Then, he turns me in a scene ripped straight from the pages of Interview With the Vampire. He sucks my blood and then draws his own with a device on his finger. I drink his blood. Then he calls a member of the hotel staff to our room and I drink their blood.
I’m repulsed after I realize what I’ve done and I yell something about how I can’t kill innocent people for food. He snides me on having a soft heart, but tells me that I can drink from rapists, thieves, murderers, drug dealers if I so choose. He tells me that I need to drink blood from at least 6 people if I’m to retain proper strength.
Another part of the backstory enters here. Vampires can go out in daylight, cannot be staked through the heart, but can be severly hurt by holy water.
Fast forward one or two months and I realize Gerard is having an affair with a man, not a woman, and that man is his brother. This is when he refuses to give up his other lover and also how I learn of the turning of the five band members.
Mikey was turned first at the age of 20. He turned Gerard next, when Gerard was 26. After that I’m not sure who was turned next, but the point is that they were all turned and are now each nearly two thousand years old. In this era they have chosen to be a rock group.
I also realize that despite Mikey being older in the ways of vampires, Gerard is the leader of our ‘cult’, if you will.
I grow bored of my life. I may have been raped every night, but running was a struggle that I enjoyed. Gerard agrees to a game I’ve concocted in my head. We are going to find a night and humans that will be falling into the same trap my friends and I were tricked into so long ago, except now I will be in the subway car.
We create every scene, including the young woman running everyday and my husband raping her everytime she is caught, with me right there to watch.
One night he leaves after violating her and I stay behind. She asks how I can love a man like that and I break her neck.
Then … I wake up.
