And her eyes never batted when she said it
I’m terrifed I have an undiscovered mental illness. I think it may actually be a disease, the obsession I have with celebrities. It’s like I can’t control it.
And the only way I get through the day is if I roleplay situations with them and myself in my head or out loud.
And somedays I just wake up and I know that there’s someone else and I just have to learn all I can about ________. It’s like a weird celebrity OCD or something.
And I asked my mom what you would do if you had a mental illness that they hadn’t discovered yet and of course she wanted to know why I asked, but I told her I wouldn’t tell her because she would worry. And then today she said she was sooooo happy I wanted to get a job because it scared her when I got super obsessed with celebrities and all I wanted to do was write fanfiction and watch their shows and listen to their music…
I mean, she says that shit and then I just stare at her for a bit and walk out of the room and keep playing pool and she’s like ‘did I say something to make you mad’ and I said no, because she didn’t. And about five minutes later she says ‘you sound mad’ and I told her I wasn’t mad. And I had finished my pool game, so I went into the living room.
I mean, she says shit like that all the time. Of course I’m not going to tell her about my fear of this celebrity OCD disease thing.
Plus, I’m not sure I would want to. I completely don’t mind it most of the time…and like I said, I can only get through my day because of the roleplaying thing (I call them my dreamlovers). I don’t know what would happen if I couldn’t do that.
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Luvverzz,
Mrs. Margera, aka Dru
