i’m counting sheep but running out

I hate being Bipolar. I hate thinking I’m so happy and then crashing.

I hate taking pills I’m not supposed to.

I hate lying to everyone about everything.

Or rather, not being able to talk about it. Silence can be a lie.

I hate that she can make me feel like shit in 2 minutes. What a fucking achievement.

I hate feeling like shit.

I hate insomnia.

I hate me.

I hate that choked up feeling you get in the back of your throat.

And I hate whining about it.

Posted by Dru at 05:32:46

Comments

Andie May says:

May 27, 2006 at 1:54 pm

You said you weren’t taking pills you weren’t supposed to…
Druscilla Ryan says:

May 27, 2006 at 11:37 pm

…

I’m sorry.

I know I shouldn’t … I just can’t stop myself sometimes.
Andie May says:

May 28, 2006 at 10:48 pm

I’m sorry you feel that way… -hugs tightly-
Druscilla Ryan says:

May 29, 2006 at 12:16 am

I wanted to today … but I didn’t.